You have always been fake throughout your day but it’s okay to hide your pains and just pretend to be a happy person who has always been replying ‘fine’ to every “how have you been” questions. You are brave though.
But at the end of the day you be who you actually are, you fix yourself and heal every wound people gave you . This world is rude instead you still manage yourself in front of those bullies and might forcefully laugh at not so funny jokes. You are brave though. And its okay if you have been fake throughout your entire day.